We Did Nothing Wrong It’s a question that haunts me… What if? I consciously don’t allow myself to start playing this question out in my mind. Nothing good can come from doing it. There’s no possible way to change the past, no matter how many times and ways I run the scenarios. That’s not to say […]
Something’s Not Right
Ryan’s had it rough over the past several days. It all began overnight last Thursday. Even as of this morning, I am unable to tell you what’s going on. Ryan’s heart rate is elevated. His baseline is in the mid-50’s at night at mid-60’s during the day. Today is a little improved, but it has […]
Stay Strong: Indomitable Will.
People tell me to “Stay strong!”, and this means a lot to me. There a times when I draw on this encouragement… every day, as a matter of fact. Mostly I love hearing this because I know people are rooting for me, for Ryan’s sake. I always considered myself a resilient sort. My wife calls […]
The Yoke I Bare: Need & Guilt.
I didn’t want to be needy… to be reliant… have others know I could not provide. It is humiliating. I reached out timidly. You were already willing to be by my side. All I had to do was ask! You took my hand. Thank you for teaching a stubborn, proud bastard a lesson.
Pomp and Circumstance… It Scares Me
It went too fast. It always does. Today is the last day of winter break and my daughter, Kari, is heading back to West Virginia University. She returns with a solid 4.0 GPA in her major and minor. Ryan would be so proud! What’s so different about this one is it is her last one […]