by Kari Diviney (Ryan’s Sister) The hardest part is when I see Ryan in my dreams and he is completely his old self. This has been happening a lot lately. I dream of him laughing his squinty-eyed laugh with me and talking about some crazy opinion he has on some random topic. He was always […]
What If?
We Did Nothing Wrong It’s a question that haunts me… What if? I consciously don’t allow myself to start playing this question out in my mind. Nothing good can come from doing it. There’s no possible way to change the past, no matter how many times and ways I run the scenarios. That’s not to say […]
Something’s Not Right
Ryan’s had it rough over the past several days. It all began overnight last Thursday. Even as of this morning, I am unable to tell you what’s going on. Ryan’s heart rate is elevated. His baseline is in the mid-50’s at night at mid-60’s during the day. Today is a little improved, but it has […]
Stay Strong: Indomitable Will.
People tell me to “Stay strong!”, and this means a lot to me. There a times when I draw on this encouragement… every day, as a matter of fact. Mostly I love hearing this because I know people are rooting for me, for Ryan’s sake. I always considered myself a resilient sort. My wife calls […]
Guest Post: Sometimes It Takes a Tragedy
by Paul Rapsawich Sometimes in life it takes a tragedy to make us appreciate what we have. I first read about Ryan through a link a friend posted about signing the petition in support of denying parole for one of the cretins, violent felon Austin Vantrease, that did this to Ryan and his family. As […]