[Over the past year I’ve been struggling emotionally. Truthfully, I still am. Probably my worst at this very moment. The hurts flows in faster than it can be drained away. Anyhow, enough said on that. Please know how much I thank you for coming back after my absence. Above all, I hope it didn’t cost […]
Why Couldn’t We be Left Alone?
I’m a realist. I get it. I understand that it is beyond daunting when it comes to Ryan’s needs. I live it every minute but also understand that being part of his life — even as someone who just wants to help out — can take considerable effort. Sure, I try to make it as […]
Stay Strong: Indomitable Will.
People tell me to “Stay strong!”, and this means a lot to me. There a times when I draw on this encouragement… every day, as a matter of fact. Mostly I love hearing this because I know people are rooting for me, for Ryan’s sake. I always considered myself a resilient sort. My wife calls […]
No, Not Today
Every Cell in My Body is Crying It’s 3:12AM. The house is still and unlit. I can’t sleep. It’s just too much for me to bear. I hurt so badly. It’s EXACTLY twenty-four hours from the time Ryan was maliciously attacked four long years ago. This day, and tomorrow, will bring me to my knees […]
Go to Hell. Go Directly to Hell.
I hate the first week of November. Hate it! I guess I always have too, because now there is no fantasy that any remnant of summer is still in the air. Those eighty-degree days are long gone, at least in my neck of the woods. Taking the dogs out in the morning requires a jacket […]