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Stream of Consciousness

January 5, 2013 by Ryan's Rally LLC 10 Comments

Whew! Ryan and I were up early this morning. I started getting him ready at 4:30 AM and had him out of bed and working before five o’clock. The nurse needed to leave early this morning and I thought we might as well get a jump on the day. That, my friends, is thinking positively. 

How easy would it have been to moan and groan about having our entire schedule thrown off? No one would have blamed me for being a bit irritable for such an early start. But the “new” Ken will have nothing to do with that sort of thinking. I looked at this as an opportunity to make this a highly productive day. After my third cup of coffee I was much more willing to believe myself.

I love that I was able to get one over on Sue too. I know she had every intention of letting me sleep. She underestimated me. My internal alarm went off at four o’clock and I got to work, readying everything for the day. Actually, I’m still having trouble sleeping so I’m not as crafty as I’m making myself out.

When it comes to sleep, it’s still the same. I sleep doze with one eye (and ear) open. Always passively listening. In-and-out of sleep all the time. It’s restless. Disturbed. My mind never takes a break. In fact, the only successful strategy for slipping away is to keep the television on. The background noise (usually) keeps me from focusing too much. Each time I wake throughout the night I force myself to not get up for long. Sometimes I just lay there for hours in the quiet of the night trying not to think. Thinking about not thinking! Is there any more concrete paradox… ever? I equate this to “a lover without passion”.

Believe me, that’s not easy to do… thinking about not thinking Just give it a try yourself.

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I’ve come to this conclusion, that I relate to water: In the stream of one’s consciousness it might be a temporary dam, but the flood gates will need opened or eventually overflow. The weight of our thoughts builds up, but never stops. The trade-off is simple. In lieu of our thoughts naturally continuing forward, the volume increases. Inching higher. Potential energy looking for the slightest flaw to breach our best efforts to the contrary. It’s always self-leveling and obeys the laws of the universe.

No exceptions.

Well… looks like I just had a deep moment there. Time to get back to my shallowness, that generally involves sports and boobs. Most recognize this as being a guy. I’m still holding out for an Olympic event that combines the two! I have some great ideas for how to use the penalty box…

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  1. Jo Hobbs via Facebook says

    January 5, 2013 at 8:03 PM

    … …If we all will dare to dream dreams of a new and brighter day, if we work to make them come true,
    we will surely find a way… …from Les Mis, Dream a Dream, Robertson.

    Reply
  2. Anna says

    January 5, 2013 at 4:20 PM

    Sounds like your mood today matches the weather…sunny and bright! Lucky for Sue.

    Reply
  3. Paula says

    January 5, 2013 at 2:52 PM

    Ken, only you can be that deep and that funny all at the same time : ) Thanks for making me laugh this morning; I always appreciate that!! Almost as much as I appreciate the astounding depth of your thought processes = pretty radical and very awesome!!

    Praying for a great day for you, Ryan, Sue and Kari!!
    Hugs, love & thankful for the very insightful thoughts you share!
    Paula

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  4. Gail Doyle via Facebook says

    January 5, 2013 at 2:16 PM

    In awe of what you’ve done and what you keep doing Ken! Hoping nothinbg but good things to come

    Reply
  5. Jo says

    January 5, 2013 at 12:57 PM

    I LOVE WAKING UP WITH KEN! EVEN WHEN YOU CAN’T SAY SOMETHING POSITIVE, YOU SAY SOMETHING FUNNY! THIS IS GOOD! The power of positive thinking cannot be over-stated. It is truly powerful. Many books written, but I don’t think there is one yet written entitled, “The Power of My Positive Thinking.” Just dreaming… …
    It looks like another sunny day out there. I haven’t checked out the expected high today for Ashburn, but you might want to think about going out for a drive with your family. It’s Twelfth Night — celebrate!
    Love and prayers, faith and hope.

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    • ryansrally says

      January 5, 2013 at 1:51 PM

      Love waking up with me?!?! That’s why I like you, because most women are repulsed waking up with me. Just ask Sue!

      Reply
  6. Jo Hobbs via Facebook says

    January 5, 2013 at 12:26 PM

    Follow that dream! What might be your first purchase for the office? Hoping there will be huge donations of useful stuff — like a Mac or some such — hmmm… …

    Reply
  7. Kathryn says

    January 5, 2013 at 12:23 PM

    Good Morning Ken and Ryan! Haven’t had a chance to send a New Year’s greeting to the Diviney family yet, so: Happy New Year! Looks like you’re off to a good start! Looking forward to following you through 2013 with all the ups and downs that may come along. Grateful for this time of opportunity and positive thinking!! I know it’s a challenge, but I know you can find a way to make something positive happen! Excited to see what happens!

    Reply
  8. Rita says

    January 5, 2013 at 12:18 PM

    Oh, Ken… We can only imagine how much more formidable you might be after a full night’s sleep! You and Ryan are already unstoppable, and always productive. Maybe your minds are in sync in terms of consciousness, and that’s what makes you such a great team…

    Reply
  9. Jaimi Dean Franus via Facebook says

    January 5, 2013 at 12:17 PM

    Good Morning!

    Reply

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