People are asking how Ryan’s eyes are doing since the tarsorrphaphy. More precisely, since he had the plastic reinforcements and a couple of stitches removed last week. The short answer is they seem fine. I think.
It’s hard to tell though, because his eyes are still basically sewn shut. There is just the slightest openings near the nose. It makes it extremely difficult to assess the health of his eyes without the proper equipment and a trained doctor. This is where Dr. Hinkle is so helpful. I’m looking forward to having him see Ryan on Thursday.
I’m hoping this small opening is enough to allow visual input when Ryan’s eyes are centered and down.
Here’s a picture I took of his eyes just a day or two ago. Don’t be alarmed by the thick moisture around them. This is the antibiotic ointment and the routinely administered eye moisturizing drops.
Ryan’s eyes should open more, but not entirely. The stitches are designed to pop sequentially (i.e., think of this as a zipper) over six weeks. The optimum outcome is for 1/3 of his lids to be open while to remaining 2/3 are held shut; by both the stitches and his upper and lower eyelid blood vessels crossing over.
I miss seeing his deep brown eyes. Truth is, I miss everything about him. It hurts. It’s even worse to see Sue hurt. There’s nothing that will make her feel better, only my ineffective attempts to comfort her when the tears start to flow (and swallow my urge to join her).
There’s plenty of time for me to cry later, when it won’t fuel the raging sorrow… I have the rest of my life.