I know I was told, at least twice, that this past weekend was Easter. For whatever reason, it just didn’t register in my mind. Lat’s face it, holidays just don’t matter to me anymore, especially those tied to a faith that I gave up on some time back. On Saturday morning is when it hit me because I began getting excited about Kari coming home from WVU (she’s leaving this morning).
I’m not sure what prompted me but I checked the nurse’s schedule to see who was on that night. Saturday’s are inconsistent with the nurse assigned. We don’t have a steady one, but the agency is (generally) good about getting it covered. We have one regular nurse who always takes at least two of these a month (and usually three), leaving just one or two needing picked-up. I was happy to see we had a nurse coming in. Sure, she wasn’t a regular but she knew Ryan and it wouldn’t take much to get her up to speed.
Then I looked at Sunday. It was blank. The nurse who works this shift wasn’t coming in. It was Easter and she has never really worked a holiday yet, so I shouldn’t have relied on her to cover this shift (her shift, by the way). Thank goodness we have the other regular nurse who does whatever she can to help us out (even coming in at midnight on Christmas and New Year’s Eve). My oblivion that it was a holiday bit me in the ass. I should have been more aware, because now it’s too late. We’re screwed. There was no hope that it would get covered this late in the game and I never got a call from the nursing agency as a heads-up.
As I write this it’s four o’clock in the morning and I’m tired. The kind of tired where a guy doesn’t see straight. A tired where everything is annoying. I’m so tired my nerves are hypersensitive… I itch everywhere. I’m downright irritable. I dread plodding through the day ahead. It’ll be a rough one on me, for sure. These sleepless nights are killing me, and I mean that literally. It’s just too much… too often.
With that in mind, let me finish by giving some advice to anyone thinking of going into nursing. If you don’t want to work weekends or holidays then chose another career (or work for our agency, it would seem).