I took a look at my posts over the past week and decided I am being a bit of a downer. A buzz-kill, as it were. I am hoping we are on the cusp of good news from the doctors of the International Brain Research Foundation. But, in the meantime the best way to remedy my bummer attitude is to lighten up. What better way than laughing at my own mishaps?
For roughly six months now, I have been taking an anti-anxiety medication. I can tell you, it has helped greatly. It’s relatively low dosage — enough to take the edge off — but apparently not a good idea to just stop taking all at once. More on that later.
I also take a medication for my blood pressure. This was prescribed back in July when the trial was being held. Many will remember how my nose would just start bleeding. It was more like my nose would explode. It was gushing out. Stress, for sure. I self-checked my blood pressure and it was crazy high.
Now, in my defense, the two bottles (blood pressure and anxiety) are identical. Further, the dosage is identical (take one pill once a day). The only way to know the difference is to read the label (being a guy, this is not in my nature). Also, medications go by so many brand names that even a knowledge of latin is useless. So, when I received a new shipment I just assumed I received a different brand of anxiety medicine. I’m still not sure what made me think this. There was absolutely no change.
Well, I begin to feel extremely light-headed. This went on for days. Numbness was originating in my head and radiating, like impulse waves, throughout my body. It was much worse when standing. I resolved myself to the fact that I had a brain tumor or was experiencing mini-strokes. The stress had finally gotten to me. I was an emotional wreck.
As it turns out, what had gotten to me was me. I was not taking the anxiety medicine at all. Worse yet, I was taking twice the dosage of blood pressure medication. I’m lucky I didn’t harm myself! Sue found this especially funny…
I briefly considered reporting myself, by myself, to Adult Protective Services. 😉 But, before doing so I thought I should take a minute gather more information. Yep, I was simultaneously overdosing and underdosing myself.
Going forward, I will take the same care that I do for Ryan. We have a fail-safe system in place that, among other verification, triple-checks every pill that goes into the body.
On a separate note, we received a call from the administrator at the IBRF in New Jersey. He said the doctors have their finding from the assessment given last Thursday. We anticipate getting some feedback today. We’re both scared and excited to learn what was found.