One thing we learned from the sleep study, without any official report needed, is Ryan hears noises that keep or arouse him awake. We are making every effort to keep his room completely quiet at night. So far, I have to say he does seem to be getting better rest.
It did create a bit of an issue for me. You see, I have trouble sleeping. That’s both falling asleep and staying asleep. My mind is tormented all the time, but especially so when the night brings a bit of calm. To help me cope, I would doze off watching television. It kept my mind occupied and glazed over my sad and angry thoughts.The background noise it created was blissful.
Well, the television was not in Ryan’s best interest, so we turn it off no later than ten o’clock. In actuality, this means we only
watch listen to it for thirty minutes to an hour as we go through the nightly ritual of getting Ryan squared away.
Desperate for a solution, I turned to putting in ear buds, firing-up my iPhone, and listening to the streaming internet radio. I swear, you can find a radio station on any topic! For me, I’m a fan of talk radio and finally was satisfied listening to a broadcast called Coast to Coast.
Here’s where my plan backfired. Mucho big time backfired. The topic was on violent people (i.e., Vantrease and May fit this definition nicely). The discussion centered around whether violent tendencies are acquired genetically and/or environmentally. It discussed evil. Are people born evil? It questioned if a violent/evil personality can ever be completely changed (and they decided probably not often at all, but behavior can be). It outlined major categories that motivate people to become aggressive. Needles to say, I was riveted to the discussion and sleep eluded me for quite some time.
Before I give my opinion on this (and I certainly have strong one), I’d like to hear your thoughts. I have come to rely heavily on you for insight because — all together now — you’re all big smarty pants.[poll id=”45″]
- Sleep Study Explained (ryansrally.org)