Lately many people are asking me how I’m doing. My go to response is always, “hanging in there”. It’s true too, I am… and will. I really have no choice. It’s, in many ways, a hell-of-a-life.
I continue to put one foot in front of the other, even when I know the next one could come down smack dab on a land mine. I must keep going. There’s no other option. It’s up to me to be the point man and lead the way. If it’s akin to a mine field we must go through, then it’s my duty to clear the way. All the while, remaining in aggressive pursuit of a nearly hopeless objective. How is this even possible? All I know is it is.
It’s worth the risk. Retreating is never a viable option. To do so would be self-serving and I’d like to think I’m better than that. Well, at least I hope I am but that could easily be my ego fooling me. Let’s face it, I’m not some heroic four-star general leading his troops into battle to save the motherland. The legendary, battle-hardened, leader who knows no fear.
I’m the dad.
That’s not to say I’m not capable of such a noble and courageous thing. I’m certain I am, ego considered. Haven’t I proven this? Yes. Yes, I have. I’m stronger than I ever imagined, but I’m telling you… this is something I wish I never knew. What lick of good does it serve? It’s not like I can put it on my résumé to apply for the next military leader role that opens up. All it amounts to is something I can come on a self-made website and boast about it. Hey! Look at me, everybody! Aren’t you just so damned impressed?
Eh, maybe I’m being too hard (and, equally, keen) on myself.
It just takes one look at Ryan to keep me humble. Nothing like seeing his resilience to knock a guy down a peg or two. Hell, I don’t even need to look. His strength practically fills a room with an electric blue aura. Just like others have told me, I too can feel it emanate from him. There’s something in his make-up that only can be felt, that inspires everyone around. Whatever it is — be it a soul or simply biological — it is pristine, enduring, strong, and magnificent.
I dare anyone to suggest someone who is stronger! Oh, what he has overcome. The excruciating agony he’s endured can’t be imagined. You had to see it. Even then, it’s difficult to believe.
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