I am so looking forward to this upcoming week. Thanksgiving was always my favorite holiday. In the United States we celebrate it next Thursday. I guess, in some ways, it still is my favorite. I have much to be thankful for in spite of everything. Probably more than almost any other person. It’s simple why this is so. It has everything to do with all of you.
On this day I will remember you. And everything you do — and have done — for my family. For me, Thanksgiving will entirely celebrate you. I’ll pull up an extra chair to the table to represent everyone who has helped us along the way. This chair will be a the head of the table. I promise, you will be the guest of honor. My toast will be to you. Like always, Sue will give thanks for you in prayer.
She gets down on her knees and thanks God for you more than you could imagine. Thanksgiving makes it even more special.
Sue will put out a feast and prepare a plate for you. This I know because she does it for every holiday meal. Symbolic, yes, but powerful. I’ll try to hold it together. Not cry at least. Because, with great thanks, come great humility. It is reminder that I can never begin to repay you for all your gifts, support, love, concern, wisdom, effort, prayers, and protection.
Collectively, I know this entity — what you are — as Team Diviney. Even though I lost faith, it is the one thing that causes me serious doubt. I envision it as angelic. That’s what I see in my mind. An insanely beautiful women dressed in flowing white linen with majestic wings. Long hair the color of flaxseed. A golden aura pulsating with all that is good. An essence of hope that is felt, but not seen.
Silly… I know. Sappy… absolutely.
But, it’s how I feel. If ever there were living angels on earth it would be all of you (and Sue).
I feel this all the time. In fact, I literally just dropped to a knee as I type what I’m about to say.
Please, I’m begging you, don’t ever leave us. We need you. We have nothing that even comes close to offer in return. Nothing! We never will. It’s embarrassing. You willingly and freely took on a burden. Sue might be deserving of this, but I certainly am not. I wish I had been a better man to others in need when I had the chance. More than a few times I looked the other way and now I hope for what I was unwilling to do. A hypocrite in every sense of the word that doesn’t deserve you. Oh, how insensitive and foolish I was. I hate my former self for being this way. But, I did it and I own up to it. Please forgive me if I turned my back on you when I could have made a difference. I will understand if you don’t and acknowledge it was of my own doing. I missed my opportunity to help a fellow-man. I don’t think I’ll ever have this chance again and this tears me up inside.
It took tragedy to change how I behave, but you all do this so unselfishly. You will never live with the torment I know all too well. You are amazing people for doing what is good and decent for its own sake. This way of thinking would have been lost on me just three years ago. I wouldn’t have gotten it in the least. Now I know, this world is so much better because you are in it.
So is Ryan.
Don’t miss Sue’s article, Family. It’s What We Do. Already did? It’s worth another look as we head into Thanksgiving!