I opened the door this morning to let the dogs out. I could smell winter in the air. You might know what I’m talking about. That smell that is somehow crisp and clean. Like there’s some gigantic, mystical ionized air filter scrubbing every particle. It almost feels like it will purify the lungs. It’s one of those sensations in life that I completely overlooked. I took it for granted. The smell of winter…
But, not this morning. I breathed it in. I pulled in as much air as humanly possible. My exhale was slow and deliberate. Then, something occurred to me…
I completely missed autumn.
I reminded myself to breathe.
I needed no more proof than to look at what I was wearing. I am still in shorts and a silly scrub (the thickness of a tissue) with the sleeves cut off. Honestly, it scared me that an entire season escaped me once again. Exactly when did the leaves change color? When did they fall off? I tried to make a connection to when the dogs would drag leaves in, but it just as easily could have happened yesterday as two years ago. I looked at the barren hardwood trees and they confirmed autumn is a memory… just not mine.
My mind turned back to Ryan. He’s missed years! Where would I ever begin in filling in this void in his life? I suppose I’d start with what was important to him.
Hey, Ryan, guess what? Apple has come out with a new product called the iPad. Actually, there’s already a second version of it. Steve Jobs died. Oh, and Joe Paterno was fired over how he handled a sex scandal. Did I mention, the Saints and Packers won the last two Super Bowls? West Virginia has a new football coach. Kari in now a sophomore in college at WVU. Your friends will be graduating in half-a-year. Look how amazing the basement is! We did this for you. The Redskins are still awful (some things never change). I kept the Jeep for you. Would you like to open your Christmas gifts from past years (they’re still wrapped and waiting)? Synthetic life was created in a lab. Tiger Woods blew it, along with John Edwards and a few more people. BP contaminated the Gulf. Haiti was devastated by an earthquake. Leno is back doing the Tonight Show. You should have seen the 20-plus inches of snow. There was a horrific mine explosion in West Virginia. LeBron James switched teams. Mel Gibson went on a rampage. Brett Farve might actually have retired (or not).
Where would I end? Would he even believe me?